20110731

one week gone..time flies so fast!
just feel that i never appreciate every second to study..
i believe that peer pressure really bring lots of effect to people.
u ll tend to be like the same with your gang,
while they ll do the same things also.
sometimes i doubt that people lost their original personalities..

i really don't know whether im on the right track or not.
im quite enjoy nowadays.
i play Iphone game, beat jerry's highscore..
i play ball in the midnight, have fun when watch 1 friend's action.
her action naturally entertains me.
i go to other's room talk and talk and talk..
really have fun!
PROBLEM now!!
i neglected my study!
im lack of self-control, lack of will-power,lack of determination..
CHEAH ZI CHIAN!! please awake!
U ARE A SCHOLAR, U HAVE BIG RESPONSIBILITY TO SCORE WELL!!
DON'T DISAPPOINT OTHERS!
really hope that i can have fun and at the same time can handle my studies.
yea..im greedy! i want both! can I?
i know is very3 difficult..sigh~~

fasting month is coming..
u know what? at stu UTP, no food sell in the morning and afternoon.
mean that only can eat at the night, my lunch ll be none or bread!
this bad news make my desire to have a car become stronger.
if i have car i could drive to outside to have my meals.
*much more delicious in the campus!
i have to do my study for 5 years, is not 5 months..

to dear..
i changed the name just simply play2 with my coursemate..
don't hap chou..i know dear won't..XD
sayang back yea..
about medi and pharmacy..
i think that medi will be more interesting than pharmacy,
but the risk is higher..
another thing is your emotion management must be very3 good.
ohyea..if u want to do medi,u want to be a speciality or ??
if u dare to challenge, just go ahead.
**study and work is totally different, think about it.
  YOUR FUTURE IS IN YOUR HAND

any decision u make, i ll always by your side.
know that your study became more and more difficult..
must ganbatte, sorry that i can't help u much.
i doubt my brain..undergoes retardation..
monday must be a very tiring day for u..
must have enough rest.promise?

have to off to do my work..
take care, miss you, love you.

DONT FORGET TO SMILE~

my poster!!

this is the 12 hours job!!!
XD

21110724

tensed2!!
everything is around the corner..
poster presentation 27th/28th/29th of july.
english test 1 28th/29th july
drama presentation 10th/11th/17th/18th july
physics test 2 12th aug
chemistry test2 13th aug
note: chem ll test on C6-C11,now i haven't clarify C6..TT
      i was requested to wear baju kurung for stu drama presentation..>< + TT + @@
      u know..my character is PRINCESS??!!!!
     
*who can save me?? #exhausted#
just done the mounting board for poster presentation.
the work started at3pm 23july and ended at 3am 24 july.
haha..only done 1 shower at 12am..XD
haven't write the script yet.faint~~

i'll be having drama practice..
the international students always no giving cooperation..25 marks!!
see how much the mark flies!!

lost my rhythm in this week..
i want it back..*beg

22th july..
fetched my friends to ktm station..
1 kancil with 5 fellow and 4 luagges.
the more terrible thing is my friends ktm departed at 3.10pm.
i started the journey at 2.50pm.
note: it actually need about 20-30 minutes to reach there.
1st time i speed till 130km/h,the car some more unstable..
really dangerous..hope next time no more.
*found that drive own car is the BEST.

after that went ipoh jusco with course-mates.
this trip not really nice..because got 2 friends are not that close.
reached utp at 10.00pm..still have 30 mins can use..
got 3 friends back room rest.
so ask another 2 friends to have long gai in utp!
haha..they really stu..didn't hold the soft drinks well.
the coke we da pau from MCD all spilled over the sofa..
test their driving..is very funny..^^
we still had another chit chat session until 4 something!!
got 1 friend said try dont't want sleep.
FAILED! she is the first who fainted on bed!
but it was the best record for them..@@
note : they usually sleep before 12..good baby


dear..next monday started your teaching??
everything still ok?
i think u already adapt the schedule..
if have time upload your latest thing at here.
the garden also can..
your dear become outdated from u.TT

u know what the time now??^^
is 4.46am ^^
morning!! so long didn't message this!
missssssssssssssssssssssss u and MORNING!

20100718

i cheated my friend!!
haha..but it was in good way.
because she will be 18 aged in this coming Wednesday.
1 something in the midnight asked her out to have cold drinks!
to let her room-mate (backed from rawang) set up all the things in room.
it was a great surprise to her when she opened the door!!
*memorable and funny!

I NEED CAR AND I WANT HAVE NEW PHONE!!
imagine how good im if i have a car.
can go out to have meals especially chinese cuisine.
can hang out with friends whenever i want.
can explore whole ipoh.
can travel.
i really desire to own 1 car..seriously..
when it ll come true?? * waiting~~
recently use my friend Iphone to play game..
very bad to say that i get addicted with Iphone game!
Iphone!!is my target now!

break record!
my chemistry can teach 1 whole chapter within 1 and a half hour!
so stu! i gain no chemistry knowledge in this week.
i doubt the ionic bonding between chemistry and i gonna downgrade to covalent bond.
sorry to PN.low and lewis baby..
#no catalyst#

dear..is not me don't want choi u in fb chat box.
because i thought i had messaged u via skype.
but due to the low connection in jungle, the messages sometimes are not send.
ok.maybe is my fault.then apologize here.
#sorry dear#
*gtalk is better app to chat in utp..
i added u into the contact.^^

i think u determined to work as tutor.
may be before i think so negatively, may be u can cope well and earn money at the same time..
all the best to dear.
sweet reminders:
-must get enough sleep
-drink enough H2O
-anything can just find me
 ( any2 thing also can )
-keep healthy and happy lifestyle



by the way..upload some quotes here^^

sista!!

must do like this know??
*imagine your stu face!^^

Sharing

hi..dear^^
*reply your post...
is actually all my problems.
i don't know how to express, i don't know how to start it off.
so don't doubt yourself.
u are certified as a great listener and adviser.
100% TRUE!!
sincerely..faithfully..


skip2~~
today went jogging with thara..
snap2 some pictures.
not that good looking, so i upload here..not in fb..

see!!this one so stu!!

haha..feel wanna share with you!
just have a glance of it..
maybe the last 2 pictures are better only!!
haha.
between..i want change my fb profile pic!!
upload the starbucks one..either at fb or here la.


next..
KL having serious haze problem??
today this jungle became so hazy.
here to remind drink more h2o~
must take good care of yourself~~

To You. by [syane.ms.h2o]

Don't feel guilt
Actually I learnt a lot of thing from you too
Just feel free to tell anything
If you feel like telling,don't hesitate to do so
Just like your caption of your bloggie
Free to tell
I just wanna drop you a msg here
To let you know
If everyone is not with you
there is shoulders for you to rely on
There is a dustbin for you to throw out
I don't know how I am able to help you
I don't know how powerful I am
I just know whenever I face problems
You,my sweet pumpkin will always be with me
Give me support
Help me to solve problems
Let me treat you badly
For that, I apologize
Btw,I would like to welcome you to do so
I don't mind you scolding me
I don't mind you crying in front of me
Maybe I'm not understanding enough
Maybe I'm just too careless
Maybe I will ignore what you actually need
I hope those recordings can help you
If you feel okay with it and I know it is sucks
My dear sweet pumpkin
No matter what happen
No matter how you are in front of others
Just remember
You don't have to act in front of me
You don't have to keep your feeling in front of me
We had overcome so much of problems before
It doesn't matter okay?

*OMG,sounds like couple tim..
Like what the great mind,Thara darlz said
Our relationship is mutualism
You take from me,I take from you
About the outing,it's okay
I'm just kidding about the time
Yet,I am proud to tell my friends that I hang out with you for so many hours
About scolding
Don't worry
My mum just show her "pretty face" to me only
My good mood make it invisible
So it doesn't matter
Okay.
I think I have been nagged a lot
Thanks for spending your time here to read my grandmother's story
See ya
Take care
<3

i need YOU

2 months + early in the year 2011,i leave..went to east malaysia for NS.
throughout the 2 months, im all well.
this time, i leave..still in west malaysia,
**BUT**
i miss YOU, i need YOU..
whithin this month, i really feel homesick.seriously i never feel this when i was ns-ing..
my dad said that because i went ns for fun, i feel stressless and enjoy.
while, now im under high pressure at tronoh.since im studying but not enjoy.
i have to care my studies, some more UTP has a lots of genius, most of them are scholars.
very competitive, actually sometimes i feel inferior.

BURST..is really BURST!! BURST into tears..
actually i dont want both of u to worry about me.
but if i didn't do so, i really don't know how i'll be now.
i depressed myself in the jungle such a long time.
YES!! i miss u, i need u!!
i miss your nagging.. your concern..
i feel kind of uneasy, the day i reached home.
seem something haven't do. it made me so tired, made me lost appetite.
ANS : i haven't cry in front of u..i haven't release ~~
sorry dad, ask u to bring me out to have my dinner at 2am..and i cried at the mamak stall..
sorry mom, disturb you to sleep, u awaked and listen to my complaints..
sometimes i really wish u were here for me.
i haven't fully adapt my life at the jungle. i feel emptiness sometimes..
but i'll try my best to cope with it!
truely, i feel better after RELEASE..
sorry, if i really scared u..

-hang out-
hmm..that day, i haven't RELEASE actually..
i think everything is ok.
i....a bit low energy~~but we still have a nice day..true.
sorry dear, i didn't tell u.because i myself don't know i was tired because of 'this'.
don't worry..now already overcome.
thanks for sacrifying your precious time..and the worst part is u get scolded..
*sorry
well,waiting for the next dating.
i want movie, i want haagon daz.
can i have it?

*thara, thanks for giving me the courage to BURST in front of my parents.
THANKS YOU.

reappear

uuuuttttttt..
such a long time didn't visit here..
well..now only noticed that the last post is about my decison to pursue A level.
BUT, right now..i am doing foundation in JUNGLE UTP!!
already 1 months ++ i stay at the green forest..
sigh..still have 4 years and 11 months to go.@@
really super duper miss my family, my home and .....
actually never thought of this~
the thing i expected is big circle of friends play and fool around together.
i thought i ll enjoy outstation study, i thought i ll be fine with everything....
expectations never come true~~
*less expectation, less disappointment**is true!!

just had 2 test..pre-calculus,physics..
my physic is freaking bad, the conclusion i can make is don't study at last minute, do have enough rest is important!haha. i ll just say it without do it..im not systematic style..random is the best~~
between, i really wonder why i always forget and neglect the equation of
a=v-u/t

4 marks flies~~byeeee..let it goes~~
besides, i really think that the coursework mark is too much..
really no longer in high school..the differences are obvious!!
and i realised i need guidances from people! im dependant to others~~
too bad!

good news!! im coming back home in next wednesday.
so many things want to do!!
gonna test unifi's speed!!
wait for me..my sweet home..

tired~~off to bed..
night!