qusetion

angle play very important role in life..
sometimes people are optimistic,sometimes people are pessimistic.
we must learn to see thing from the best angle.
difference of 1 degree may change a lot of things.
change of your thought,change of your emotion,change of your life..

why must life put people in tough situation??
why must life full with difficulties, challenges, obstacles??
YOU have been blocking my way!!
i hate YOU..
can YOU just piss off??

lost

2 weeks gone.
ask myself...what have i learn?
is really TERRIFIC!! i can't give any answer,not even 1 alphabet
these subjects are really strange to me.
and i don't have any passion to be close to them.
when does miracle happen on me?


once again..drama..
drama presentation..feel so fret about it.
tonnes of project works are waving to me..
english, thinking skill, programming, moral......
long sighhhhhhhhhhhhh~~

pain

million of receptors are beneath the human skin.
we sense pain..we scare hurt..
at this moment, i strongly agree with mercy killing..
since death is part of the cycle, why don't just skip the pain?
die peacefully is actually kind of good thing.
imagine the pain,struggling before death..
i don't know how much of pain i can bear.
yea..is true weak-ER!

20110924

dont know when i only can accept my uni environment.
once again unwilling back to the campus.
have no idea over this.
how can i overcome? need time..how much time i need?
*ponder..maybe after 5 years..


telling myself..welcome to the reality.
dream is just dream.
line of dream ll never have intersection point with line of reality.
*unless u have enough hard work and LUCK.

time to learn lesson of satisfaction.
be contended with what i had.

chapter 1 of sem 2 foundation start soon.
all the best to all of us

please SCOLD ME

what have i done??!!
i didn't utilise my time well..keep wasting time..
eat..sleep..online..
maybe i shouldn't back to my home..
shut myself at the campus may better than now!
just feel like rushing back to my campus!

sorry..to dear and shan..
spoilt your mood..
i shouldn't be like this..
all i can say is just sorry..please do forgive me.

about back penang..finally i din follow.
my big aunt backed..
yes..im giving excuse so that i dont have to back penang.
im bad.i know.
i get shocked when i know my grandma was sent to old folk home.
started thinking about the complicated thing.

!!!!!
I MUST STUDY!
6 days from now!
please!! CHEAH ZI CHIAN!!
wake up!!!

20110820

finally..tests and drama come to an end..
dont know izit a happy ending??
they really suffer me for a long time!
i sacrificed a lots for the stu drama.
i waste time to practice,do props and waste money contact them!
please.. im not the group leader! i should do less!
luckily i get some compliments from the audiences!
hope it ll be all well!
tests~~
i have no right to complain..because i deserve that~~
i din really give effort in my tests!
sorry.

well..here to announce that my final ll be on 6th of sep till 11th of sep.
lecturers keep remind us that test is different from final.
we will know the *STANDARD*! it sounded uneasy!
please give me the strength to study during my study week.
DO NOT GET INFLUENCE by others.
think of back to the jungle earlier.
so that can concentrate!

dear..know that u unsatisfied with your result..
the environment is too different from before.
is quite difficult to adapt..u just need time.
but..please dont over push yourself..
must have appropriate rest and break.we are only HUMAN.
no one is perfect..
this sem ll be a hectic sem for u..
MUST3 take good care..anything happen, just tell me..
i ll always stand by..^^
touch leh?

really miss3 u..TT
want to tell u that is so difficult for me to find another friend like u!
u are irreplaceable..
i really wish that i can back right now.
i haven't fully accept the environment here.
maybe i should stop thinking.

the picture that day i want to send is this

20110807

is august!!a hectic month.
test..test..test..
is full with tests...
practice..practice..practice..
have to do my drama practice..
but im still wasting my time!!
arggggghhhhhhhhh!!

i start hating chemistry
very sorry..to pn.low..

the fasting month is really terrible.
those muslims must make all the races to have fasting with them..
the cafes all close..i can't hunt for any food in the morning..
starve..eat breads only..is really stupid!

i bought the ktm ticket to back KL already!!
it is on 25th aug..2040 ll reach..
another problem now..my dad ll move to port dickson to work..
no one can fetch me back home..TT
*try to seek help from wei nee..

u know pn. halimah?
her daughter is study at utp also..
i know her daughter..and yesterday i saw her..
but..actually i dont know pn.halimah!
hahaha

dear...still coughing??
take good care leh.ok?
dont stay too late..
*health**
miss you